It started when I started reflecting on the theme for MOPS this year: "Plunge: Love as if your life depended on it."
I looked up the passage from 1 Peter 1:7-11 (the Message translation) from which the theme was taken. As I interpreted it in view of how it applied to my role as a mother, I was convicted.
I came to this quote on page 72 and was encouraged in how to replace the irritable stinginess with cheerful generosity:
There are several areas where I've gotten off track in living up to my gentle parenting ideals lately. I need to renew my mind with proper perspective and tools. But first and foremost, I need to renew the invitation for the Holy Spirit to be constantly filling me in this challenging endeavor of mothering well.
“Attitude, I have found, makes all the difference when it comes to serving our children. Serving with joy in the midst of messes and difficulty can only be done when we walk in the power of the Holy Spirit. When we are joyful and see each minute with our children as an opportunity to worship God through our service of him, our children sense our joy and feel secure and happy.”
I want to be a wholehearted mother, embracing the mess, tedium and repetition and staying in the moment with my children rather than seeking excessive escapes.