Because I felt good most of the week, I did a lot of housework, cooking and outside activities. I enjoyed feeling productive, and I enjoyed feeling almost normal. And maybe, probably, OK OK almost definitely, I overdid it. There, I said it. (I hate to admit it, and I hate having to revisit this lesson over and over.) It's so hard to say no to good things when I'm feeling good.
Thursday afternoon the early warning signs that I had been overdoing it were there. Trouble focusing on the task at hand, trouble pulling myself away from the lure of screens.
But Thursday night I really wanted to stay up and watch Peter Pan Live with my family, so we did.
Friday I tried to take it easy and went to bed before 9 as I usually do. But I think I didn't drink enough water.
It all caught up with me this morning when I really didn't feel rested when it was time to get up. But I really wanted to stay productive and keep feeling "normal," so I got up anyway and tidied the house. Then around 11 I started to feel like I had to go back to bed or I was going to crash. I tried to get away with just sitting with Elliott and doing some reading to rest, but had trouble keeping my eyes open so finally around noon gave in and took a nap. Now I'm feeling pretty good again.
<sigh>
After feeling so good this week I was so hopeful that I would be totally and completely healed.
I did have a great week in terms of minimal symptoms and good levels of energy (at least feeling closer to normal for me, I have no idea what normal is for anyone else). But my resting heart rate is still very slow. Hovering in the high 50s all this week and only 52 beats per minute this morning.
And missing one or two hours of sleep like I did Thursday night, and falling just a bit short on my fluid intake still affects me disproportionately. In addition to feeling unrested after a full night of sleep this morning, yesterday afternoon and this morning I've had some slight shortness of breath and a few palpitations.
I still trust God and know He is my Healer. I praise Him for the refreshment and renewal He provided this week. But it would seem I still need a new heart...
And I still need to learn how to live well and in balance within the limitations of my condition.
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